Song of the Day – I’ve got two words for you

I agree Kam. I agree 100% ~ Pretty sure all Swifties do!

Unless you live under a rock, you are likely well aware that Miss Taylor Allison Swift recently released TS12 – her 12th album entitled, “The Life of a Showgirl” – and it is amazing.

Trying to pick a favorite track has proved to be quite the challenge for me, but after dozens of plays, I think I have to say it’s Track #2. Elizabeth Taylor. Take a listen and you’ll see why.


According to an article on People.com, this song was first inspired by a conversation between Taylor and Travis. If you know any history about the legendary Elizabeth Taylor and our favorite pop queen, Taylor Swift, you’ll know there are a few similarities in their lives. Both were/are always under major media scrutiny for one reason or another. But of course their love lives were/are a hot topic.

The song it self starts out slow and works up to a sound like a love song would but quickly takes a turn with a serious beat drop that deserves a hard rock/heavy metal cover and soon!

When dissecting the lyrics, you’ll find references to where Richard Burton proposed to Elizabeth Taylor and places that Taylor Swift had visited, but the lyrics are so much deeper. Bits of each of their lives are wonderfully intertwined. One thing that hooks me though – and so many of us like Kam, who was one of her dancers during the Eras Tour and also featured in the first video from the album – is the exclamation of her name Elizabeth Taylor! And of course if her heart gets broken, “I’d cry my eyes violet.”

I don’t know. At this point I’m just rambling. LOL I just LOVE this song! And I think you should listen to it. You’ll love it too. Leave a comment and let me know what you think of the song.

k

the emotion is real…

Five days ago my life changed. (Because I too am dramatic) Even if just for a brief moment in time. Okay, so maybe it didn’t change, but it was rocked. In a good way. I’ll explain.

I knew it was coming. I, along with millions of fans, had been anticipating this album drop for months! Everyone had been doing their best to notice every Easter egg they could. Every outfit. Every planned “pap walk.” (paparazzi) Every conversation. They all were potential hints to what was about to be. And oh my, were there some theories out there! I’m still not convinced something else isn’t going to drop before the end of the year. The pre-orders were in, but none delivered just yet. I was in the dark along with everyone else.

Taylor Swift hit the radio waves big time in 2006. I’ve been a fan from the beginning. My interest waxed and waned over the years. After all, I was raising kids, working, and going to school. Music wasn’t at the top of my list for many years. But her music was always there. Not a year (or so it seems) went by that she wasn’t on any number of award shows. Two of my favorite performances were when she performed “You Should Have Said No” at the ACM awards in 2008 and “Mean” at the Grammy’s in 2012- I wonder what that guy thinks now? There have of course been dozens of performances since then, but those were so very powerful.

Fast forward to springtime 2024. I am in one of the most anxiety filled times in my life. It wasn’t the first time, but my husband was once again in a very serious health situation. Stress levels and worry through the roof. Whether I was sitting at home alone or in the hospital room, there was not much to do. TV was boring as hell. Flipping through videos on the socials and I see people live streaming Taylor Swift’s concerts on TikTok and I start watching. Then I start following various creators that are sharing all sorts of things about Taylor. They are so fun to watch. It was giving me something to keep my mind off the more serious things going on. And by the way, he made it through two major surgeries and came home after a long stay.

So now I’m in deep and an official elder Swiftie. I am watching videos from 6-10 content creators and learning all about Taylor’s albums, Easter eggs, the TV albums (Taylor’s Version) and the story behind it all. I watch as The Tortured Poets Department albums becomes and is added to the Era’s Tour set. I learn about the Lover House, fall in love with the Folklore album, and get super excited when the gold bodysuit is revealed in Miami Night 1! All the dresses! The surprise songs! What does it all mean? And will we ever get the Rep Vault tracks? I hope so! And don’t even get me started on an adult version of Debut. Oh my.

I went to bed last Thursday night knowing that the album was going to become available on Spotify at midnight Eastern time and I was fine with hearing it the next day. Well…I woke up around 1130p – and I’m in the Central time zone – and had to go to the bathroom. Thank you menopause. I decided to open Spotify and put on the new album since it was up and go back to sleep while I was “listening.” It wasn’t until later Friday morning that I had a chance to really listen. As I type this, it is Wednesday night. I am sure that I have listened to the album upwards of 30 times already. Amazing doesn’t cut it. I’m obsessed with it. And have cried so many times while listening to it.

Sure, it’s a temporary obsession…maybe. But I feel an emotional connection to Taylor’s music. It was her music that helped ease much of the anxiety during the time that my husband was so sick last year and fighting to get home. I had the Swifties and the pure joy that every single one of those concerts brought to the thousands in attendance and the thousands of us who watched the grainy live streams on our phones and laptops. I got to interact with others who were just streaming for fun. I have had the privilege of learning more about Taylor as a person and understand the complexities of her writing style. And oh my god! We got to see her love affair blossom into a fairytale.

But all of this has been a therapy of sorts. Instead of worrying so much, I turned to the music and it was – and is – calming.

Then it hit me!

This is not the first time. It may be an intense feeling right now, but definitely not the first time. Looking back through the years, music has always been there for me. From the time when I was a pre-teen and unhappy with my living situation and blaring Joan Jett and the Blackhearts to when I had a newborn and a dying father at the same moment and singing Sara Evans songs to my baby. Certain songs will always bring me back to moments in time and remind me how healing the tunes and the melodies were.

When things are going not so great and I’m dancing through the lightning strikes, it’s as if music itself brings me out of the onyx nights and turns the sky a beautiful hue of opalite.

That rocks.

k

Song of the Day – Silver Springs

What an amazing performance. If you have never watched this video…stop reading and watch it in it’s entirety. Then come back here to finish reading. You won’t be sorry.

The music of Fleetwood Mac is something I have enjoyed as long as I can remember. But it was limited, for a very long time, to only what was being played on the radio. Not to mention, I was sever years old when the album, Rumours, was released. Later in life, when I found out that Silver Springs was left off of the 1977 album Rumours and used as a B-side to the song Go Your Own Way, I was shocked.

Fast forward a few years and eventually, MTV was created. Over time, shows featuring music became more popular. In 1997, the band Fleetwood Mac (the Rumours line-up) reunited for a 20th anniversary of the album. And they did it in a most amazing fashion. A new album, The Dance, was recorded. Not only did they record the audio of the live performances, but they filmed three performances at Warner Bros. Studios in June 1997. The result was pure magic.

Stevie Nicks states that the song Silver Springs was written about the ending of the romantic relationship that she had with bandmate Lindsey Buckingham. The song has been called tender, vengeful, and emotional. It is all of those things. Just watch the video above, if you haven’t already.

The video opens with a beautiful view of the late Christine McVie playing the piano. It then pans to Stevie Nicks, who looks stunning in her signature black, “witchy,” flowing dress. As she begins singing, you can already see the emotion behind the lyrics of this song…as if she is momentarily reliving a difficult time in her life. The pain she felt as a young woman in such a turbulent relationship is still very real.

She looks toward the subject of the song, Lindsey Buckingham, several times during the early part of the song, almost willing him to look in her direction. But he is resisting, or so it seems – until his guitar solo ends. They sing a couple more lines and she truly seems to cast her spell upon him. He can finally no longer resist looking in Stevie’s direction and she has him. Those looks. Those emotions. The love. The anger. She will not let him break their gaze. It’s fucking amazing. And I’m in tears again. It does it to me every single time.

Music should move us. Performances like this one, that are just so classic, do it. The musicianship of every member of this band is/was astonishing. They move us with their music and lyrics and take us to a place where we can feel the emotions of the stories they are telling us. That is what I love about music.

k

It’s a Beautiful Morning

I don’t know what it was this morning, but it really brought this song to mind. Truly, it is a beautiful day here in western Oklahoma.

A couple of weeks ago you would have had difficulty getting me to acknowledge the beauty of the sunrise, the refreshing feel of the almost never ending breeze we have here, or the beauty in the song of the many species of birds that we have in  our area. Anxiety is a scary and confusing feeling. It can rob you of happiness and joy.

But the last several days have been significantly better. Last July my husband and I purchased our very first home. Now we are working on getting our front yard looking nice. Our landscaper – yes…I can actually say that very grown-up phrase LOL – He says he will help us to have a golf course-like front lawn. I can’t wait! We are brainstorming ideas for an area of the front under my office window and reconsidering a whole new arrangement for the backyard. Well, mostly I am, but it’s fun to dream!

The past 16-17 months have been incredibly eventful. Not only did we pack it up and leave Massachusetts and our two youngest children behind (rather quickly I might add), but there have been health issues for my husband, my mother, and my stepfather. Everything must have just finally come to a head and I just couldn’t quite overcome it all. My typical “It’s all going to be okay” just wasn’t cutting it.

Now I am doing my best to shift into a “take care of me” mode and will be having a go at some doctors appointments that I have postponed long enough. I need to take care of me. My family and friends have been telling me this for years. My “job” as a caregiver can take a toll. I must work in time for myself daily. And writing, listening to music, and sharing it all, is a proven self-therapy.

As I sit and write this, I am on our back porch in the sun, enjoying the breeze, and joyfully taking in the birdsong, soaking in the sunlight and working on my tan 😂 I actually have color again! Massachusetts sucked that color right out of my skin.

Our mental health is just as important to take care of as our heart health, dealing with diabetes, or any other health issue we may have. Keeping things all bottled up does nothing to help the situation. We need to take time to have those conversations with each other. Do things that bring us joy like listening to music, taking a walk, journaling, or even creating a website where you can share with others – just like I did!

More to come on a regular basis. It’s a beautiful morning. Why not go outside awhile? Just smile. Take in somee clean fresh air.

k

I cannot tell a lie

Many many moons ago, when I was a little girl, my parents had garage parties. My father would be the “dj.” He loved it. He loved music and I’m sure that is where my love of music came from. Somewhere along the line my father started playing music for people at parties. Then people started asking him to play at wedding receptions, at country clubs for events, etc. He started his own business – Dance Designs Mobile Discotheque. Don’t laugh. It was the early eighties. He was having a blast! And so was I.

Listening to his records when he played them and planned playlists for each event brought me joy. I loved sitting in our living room listening to the music coming from the garage as the grown-ups danced and partied on through the late hours of the night. I would usually end up falling asleep on the couch. Probably because I had sampled a couple of sips of wine out of the glasses sitting around. Again – late seventies, early eighties. It just happened!

While my dad would teach me how to take care of my 45s and albums, use stereo equipment properly, he also had one rule – Don’t play the records he had put away for the parties. I wasn’t allowed to handle those ones.

I don’t remember exactly, but I’m thinking it was a Friday afternoon after school. I was seven years old. I was listening to my records in my room. Good grief, even at seven years old I was rocking out in my room to loud music! LOL

The song ended and I jump off my bed where I am dancing around. There is a song I really want to hear again. But it’s in THAT box of records. The one’s I’m not supposed to play. An idea is born. I am going to get that record out of the box. But to make sure my dad doesn’t know I used it, I’ll put a piece of paper in the spot where it goes so the records don’t get out of order. I’ll listen to it, put it back in it’s sleeve and back in the box and nobody will ever know. Right?

The Brothers Johnson had a huge hit in 1977 with a remake of Shuggie Otis’ Strawberry Letter 23, which was produced by the amazing Quincy Jones. Couldn’t figure out why that was the title when the lyric clearly says 22. But that is a story for another time. This song will always have a place in my heart.

So I’m listening to this super cool song, dancing around on my bed again. Loving it. It ends. Time for a new song. I take the record off my record player and lay it down next to the sleeve on my bed. Put on a new song and we’re back into dancing on the bed. A few seconds into the next song, I take a step and hear the unmistakable sound of an off-limits 45 cracking under my foot. I am frozen. Fear of my father grips my soul and all I can think of is “how am I going to hide this?”

Of course the child that I am puts it back in the sleeve, goes back to my parents’ room and into the closet where his records are, find the paper marking the spot where it goes. I slip it back into place and my little child brain decides that I just won’t say anything. If he asks about it when he notices it, and he will notice, I will just play dumb. Yeah. That will work! Everything gets put away, I go back to my room and act like it never happened.

The next morning I wake up and head toward the living room to watch cartoons, which is why I think the record incident was a Friday after school. But I hesitate. My dad is sitting at the table in the dining room reading the morning paper. I try to continue on as normal, but suddenly the guilt of my crime is eating away at me. I’m seven and on the verge of my first panic attack!

I can’t concentrate on the cartoons. I go back to the dining room to where my dad is. Immediately I start crying and of course he wants to know what’s wrong, so I spill my guts. I tell him every little sordid detail just as I have told it here, or pretty close I suppose.

What happened next, I’m not entirely sure. It’s a little fuzzy, but I’d venture to say he started laughing. My dad was very chill and did not anger easily. He probably saw how distressed I was and didn’t want to make it worse. There was some disappointment, as any parent would have, but there was also a part of him that was proud of me because I admitted my wrong doing.

Thinking back on that day makes me laugh. Smile. There are so many great memories that I have of my incredible father. Music will always make me think of him. Even now, I wonder if he would like the music I have discovered in the past year.

Yes. I believe he would. How great it would be to share it with him!

For now, enjoy the first record I ever broke. It’s a good one!

k

thankful…

thank you India, thank you terror, thank you disillusionment, thank you frailty…

Alanis Morissette wrote a song back in the late 90’s after having gone on a trip to India. It was a well deserved break that she certainly deserved. According to an interview with MTV, Alanis, up to that point, had not taken a break in her career. This song was written after her spiritually awakening trip. It is essentially a thank you to the Universe for all of the things in her life that have shaped who she had become and lessons learned.

Having just celebrated Thanksgiving here in the United States, I had this song on my mind. And while I have not taken a journey to India for relaxation and spiritual guidance/discovery, I have had some time and experiences that have helped me to learn and grow. Experiences that have shown me how important it is to not only take care of others, but to take care of myself first.

In her song, Alanis thanks terror, frailty, and disillusionment. She thanks providence, disillusionment, nothingness, clarity, and silence. She speaks of remembering one’s divinity, unabashedly bawling your eyes out, and about allowing yourself to experience grief.

I would have to mimic that sentiment. So many feelings, experiences, and just overall stuff – good and bad – have shaped who I am today. Am I done growing? Are you? No. I honestly believe that we are growing and changing in one way or another every single day of our lives. For me, it would go something like this:

Thank you, COVID.
Thank you, loneliness.
Thank you, hospital staff.
Thank you, music.
Thank you, anxiety.
Thank you, Twitter family.

And yeah, I balled my eyes our a few times. I’m hanging on to my divinity. Some friendships have faded but now I have new friends. It’s all going to be okay.

Thank U.

k

I get it now…

I think I owe an apology to The Chicks (formerly The Dixie Chicks).

Nearly 20 years ago, I made the foolish choice to side with those who attempted to “cancel” The Chicks. That was likely the very first attempt in what would become the Cancel Culture, to get the public to turn against a group and attempt to erase all of their successes and make them disappear. Didn’t work. In fact, the situation they went through ultimately led to them having a critically acclaimed hit that won three Grammys and two nominations at the 2007 CMT Music Awards – I’m Not Ready to Make Nice.

The past several years have been extremely tense in the United States, politically speaking. It is clear where lines have been drawn with the two major political parties in this country. It’s scary. I never really used to follow any politics. I just went with the flow. I voted without doing my homework over the years, and it appears that I had not been the only one employing that technique. And it recently failed us. Big time.

Now, I am not trying to start a big political argument here with this post. So just bear with me please.

In 2003, our U.S. troops were in Iraq. It was a very tense political time then as well. Opinions about the war were being shared by everyone. It really should have come as no surprise to hear another celebrity speak up about their dislike for the war. I’m sure many celebrities supported it and many did not. So when Natalie Maines of The Chicks make a comment about it while on tour in London, it should have just been taken with a grain of salt, so to speak, as most comments are. But for whatever reason, her comment about being ashamed of where our President lived at the time (Texas, which is where The Chicks are from as well) blew the f&%# up!

The backlash that Natalie and the group experienced was harsh. Sadly, I must admit, that I was one that jumped on that bandwagon. My “boycott” of The Dixie Chicks was not nearly as harsh, but I agreed with those who stopped playing their music on the radio and the political commentators that probably said things like, “Celebrities should just shut up and be celebrities,” or things to that effect. I’m sure I even said things like, “If you don’t like it here in the U.S., then you can just leave.” Etc. Again, here I was just going with the flow and not really understanding it all. And btw – I never actually got rid of my Chicks cd and never actually stopped liking their music.

Fast forward to today. I’m still not as informed as I ought to be when it comes to politics, but I have made progress. I am much more informed. I have grown as a person. We all have the right to express our opinions, even celebrities. They are humans too and have to deal with all of the same shit us non-celebrity folks have to deal with. I understand where the group was coming from with their opinions of the President at that time. I have suffered through a presidency that I contributed to only to come to the same conclusion about that President as they did then.

Most importantly, I believe, is that I understand how important it is that we have the right to express our opinions about things without having to fear any potential consequences. Wishful thinking, I know. There is always going to be someone who will take issue with an opinion. We should also not fear being ourselves. Especially being a woman. I read a few things about the Chicks’ controversy from 2003 before writing this and was saddened to read about a male country star who walked out of one of their performances at an awards show because the performance apparently wasn’t country enough. That’s crazy!

I know this has gone from politics to freedom of expression to a touch on the marginalization of women. These are topics we could discuss for hours! But mainly I want to apologize to The Chicks for not taking the time to understand then, exactly how they were feeling and why.

I get it now.

k