I don’t know what it was this morning, but it really brought this song to mind. Truly, it is a beautiful day here in western Oklahoma.
A couple of weeks ago you would have had difficulty getting me to acknowledge the beauty of the sunrise, the refreshing feel of the almost never ending breeze we have here, or the beauty in the song of the many species of birds that we have in our area. Anxiety is a scary and confusing feeling. It can rob you of happiness and joy.
But the last several days have been significantly better. Last July my husband and I purchased our very first home. Now we are working on getting our front yard looking nice. Our landscaper – yes…I can actually say that very grown-up phrase LOL – He says he will help us to have a golf course-like front lawn. I can’t wait! We are brainstorming ideas for an area of the front under my office window and reconsidering a whole new arrangement for the backyard. Well, mostly I am, but it’s fun to dream!
The past 16-17 months have been incredibly eventful. Not only did we pack it up and leave Massachusetts and our two youngest children behind (rather quickly I might add), but there have been health issues for my husband, my mother, and my stepfather. Everything must have just finally come to a head and I just couldn’t quite overcome it all. My typical “It’s all going to be okay” just wasn’t cutting it.
Now I am doing my best to shift into a “take care of me” mode and will be having a go at some doctors appointments that I have postponed long enough. I need to take care of me. My family and friends have been telling me this for years. My “job” as a caregiver can take a toll. I must work in time for myself daily. And writing, listening to music, and sharing it all, is a proven self-therapy.
As I sit and write this, I am on our back porch in the sun, enjoying the breeze, and joyfully taking in the birdsong, soaking in the sunlight and working on my tan 😂 I actually have color again! Massachusetts sucked that color right out of my skin.
Our mental health is just as important to take care of as our heart health, dealing with diabetes, or any other health issue we may have. Keeping things all bottled up does nothing to help the situation. We need to take time to have those conversations with each other. Do things that bring us joy like listening to music, taking a walk, journaling, or even creating a website where you can share with others – just like I did!
More to come on a regular basis. It’s a beautiful morning. Why not go outside awhile? Just smile. Take in somee clean fresh air.
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